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Iraq speech

I. Introduction

A. How would you like to make.

1. 20-30 thousand a year tax free, Safe location, For just a couple of months

2. Come work for Blackwater, Titan, or CACI

3. In the military you make $3,000,

a. you could make that in a week if you come work for us!

B. Sounds too good to be true right? Perhaps it is.

II. Black Water, Titan, CACI

Hired civilian contractors sent to Iraq to help aid military

I. What Blackwater is

A. Good vs. Evil

1. Web site - You can do aviation, construction, ect;

Show Video of parents who lost their son.

B. What they’re doing Is Unqualified.

1. Sending men into a war with out protection.

C. Why it’s wrong

1. Its dangerous to civilians and military.

2. It’s costing us money.

a. Our military was build for this job, not them.

3. It’s putting our own military out of business

D. After the incident

1. Not only did they save their company they also profited.

II Titan & CACI

A. Titan Corporation

1. Now the L-3 Communications Titan Group

B. CACI

1. One of their main jobs is to hire translators.

III. Abu Ghraib

A. What happened

B. What really happened - video

1.Lawyers for the soldiers argue they are being made scapegoats for a rogue military prison system in which mercenaries give orders without legal accountability.

2. One civilian contractor was accused of raping a young male prisoner but has not been charged because military law has no jurisdiction over him.

C. Who it hurts

1. Innocent Arabs vs. unqualified translators.

2. Because of bad interrogators military lives are lost

Conclusion

I. Recap

II. Corporate War

III. This is why we need to pay more attention and get active in politics.

A. Write congressmen

B. Go to http://iraqforsale.org/dosomething.php

C. Because when America isn’t free what’s the point?

 

Bibliography

“Blackwater USA” Blackwater. 2006. <http://www.blackwaterusa.com/>

Greenwald, Robert “Iraq For Sale.” 2006. Brave New Films <http://iraqforsale.org/index.php>

Thompson A.C. “Private Contractors and Torture at Abu Ghraib, Iraq.” CorpWatch. 7. May 2004. <http://www.corpwatch.org/article.php?id=10828>

“Titan Website”. L3 Titan Communications. 2006. http://www.titan.com/home.html>

Intervention Guide

Intervention Pictures

-Emily Dickinson is perhaps one of the most famous poets ever known. Born in 1830, she died before she became a celebrated writer. Her family members later discovered hand bound volumes of poems and published them after her death.

-Her poem "I Cannot Live With You" offers a glimpse into her strange life. One of secrecy, love, and hope, which I will uncover on these fallowing pages.

-This poem cannot first be explicated with out an understanding of Emily’s life. Before becoming a recluse in her home, she attended Mount Holyoke Female Seminary but it was a sever homesickness that caused her to return home. This will later explain. Emily’s thoughts that she is the sinner in this poem.

-Her saint, be there one, is a man by the name of Charles Wadsworth, a Reverend. In this poem Emily compares her failed attempt as a nun to his strength to be a priest.

-It is not for sure that the two were lovers but after his departure, Emily wrote many heartsick poems.

-The poem "I Cannot Live With You." is written in the first person. Dickinson used a series of dashes unique to her to add punctuation or a pause to this poem. Because of this I divided the poem into 12 stanzas then into 50 lines since sometimes one line alone may not make complete sense.

-This poem starts out with out rhyme in the first, third, and fourth quatrain. Then rhymes every other line in the second, fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth, tenth, and eleventh quatrain. Stanza’s nine and twelve have three lines that rhyme. The pattern of this is x a x a x b x b x x x x x x x x x c x c x d x e x e x f x f g g x g x h x h x i x i x j x j.

-Stanza one " I cannot live with you - It would not be life - And life is there - Behind the shelf" She cannot live with him because he is a priest, if he were dead this life would not be the same with out him, and she cannot be with him in the afterlife because loving him will condemn her to hell.

-Stanza two, line one: "The Sexton keeps his key to -" The Sexton keeps the key to the china hutch.

-Lines five, six, and seven: "Putting up our life - His porcelain - Like a cup." He locks our lives up for safe keeping.

-Stanza three, lines nine through twelve: "Discarded of the Housewife- Quaint - or Broke- A newer Sevres pleases - Old ones crack" A house wife keeps her home in good order and condition so old broken cups are replaced by finer dishes.

-Stanza four, line thirteen. "I could not die- with You -" She was not allowed to die with him.

-Lines fourteen and fifteen: "For One must wait - To shut the Other’s Gaze down" Some one must close the open eyes of the dead.

-Stanza five, lines seventeen to twenty: "And I - could I stand by - and see you freeze - with out my Right of Frost - Death’s Privilege?" She asks herself how she could watch him die and do nothing and seems bitter that she had to do so.

-Stanza six, line twenty-one: "Nor could I rise - With you -" She could not wake with him each morning as husband and wife or she could not rise with him from the grave to heaven.

-Lines twenty-two to twenty-four: "Because your face - Would put out Jesus’ - That New Grace" She would find him so beautiful that she would place him before God’s son.

-Stanza seven, line twenty-five, "Grow plain - and foreign" Jesus’ face would be dulled by her lovers.

-Lines twenty-six to twenty-eight: "on my homesick Eye - Except that You than He - Shone closer by -" She longs for heaven but he seems closer to holiness than God.

-Stanza eight, line twenty-eight: "They’d judge us - how -" She knows how God would judge them.

-Lines thirty to thirty-two: "For You - severed Heaven - You know, Or sought to - I could not -" He became a priest and she failed to become a nun now she feels like a sinner and he’s her safe.

-Stanza nine: "Because You saturated sight - And I had no more Eyes - For sordid excellence - As paradise" The light of him blinded her now he outshines heaven so that paradise seems dirty to her.

-Stanza ten, line thirty-seven: "And were you lost, I would be" If he were lost she would be too.

-Lines thirty-eight to forty: " Though My Name - Rang loudest - On the heavenly fame -" He would cry out her name so loudly that it would ring through the heavens.

-Stanza eleven, line fourty-one: "And were you - saved-" He was saved by God.

-Lines forty-two and forty-three: "And I- condemned to be - Where You were not-" She was condemned to hell and he would go to heaven

-Line forty-four: "That self- were Hell To Me " To be condemned with out him is hell. This could also be a mistake or a misprint if you add and h making the word shelf it would make more sense. Then this would mean the world its self is hell to her.

-Stanza twelve lines forty-five and forty-six: "So We must meet apart - You there - I -here -" They are forced to be apart on different sides of heaven and hell.

-Line forty-seven: "With just the door ajar" they could only see and have contact with each other through a small gap.

-Lines forty-eight to fifty: "That Oceans are - and prayer - And that white Sustenance - Despair" Purity has now become despair.

-In the second stanza "The Sexton keeps his key to - Putting up our life - His porcelain - Like a cup" bring up the image of fine china locked away. This is also smile, she also use the concert image of Jesus’ face to compare it to that of her companion which is analogy.

-She also uses the imagery of white oceans or prayers. Allusion to me, this is my allusion, which is why my boyfriend is here today be cause I can understand the relationship between a sinner and as saint. Angel and a fallen angel. It’s no secret that he’ll make it into heaven long before I do. I don’t know if it is mythology but there is reference to the Christian religion. The Christian religion is often used as an analogy, as is done often with much of her margay for example the sexton keeps our lives like a srmile saying that god the sexton keep our lives. Which discarded of the from the house wife. Ironically a sexton and a house wife is almost a paradox for a sexton is clergies who looks after a church and a house wife is married woman. In Catholism it is not possible for a priest to marry.

-And if God is the sexton of the souls of heaven then the house wife would be Mother Nature, discarding the dead from the earth. Again more irony. Considering that Mother Nature was worshiped by pagans, not by Catholics who believed the pagans were sinners. As you can already see there is a great deal of symbolism in this poem, she sees here self as a cast out sinner and her priest as an angel.

-The sexton’s cups represent our lives. "The others gaze" is a reference to the stares of the dead and is also a metaphor. Oceans and prayers to her are now the symbolism of despair. Prayers being the substance of despair is both and analogy and a paradox. She also analogized life to the shelf almost as a reference to Shakespeare’s quote "The world is a stage."

-If there is any personification it would be giving life to a cup. There is metaphorical value to life being a shelf.

-The comparison of her priest to an angel and herself a sinner is an extended metaphor that runs through out the poem. Yet the entire poem may be an apostrophe to her dead lover. This poem may function as a literary symbol in the way that the death of a love one and the loss of love. The struggle between love and makes this poem a didactic poem and is also the theme of the poem.

Entering highschool was a turning point in my life one which came unexpectedly. I can't litterally say I entered highschool, I didn't walk through the doors the first day nor day after that. Not durring the fallowing month or even the following 3 years.
 
 
This is the only way for this story to be told. When freshman year started for my class I wasn't there. I didn't have a full semester until the end of my junoir year. My Senoir year was the first full year of highschool. That is why just standing here today is and acomplishment
 
So I fuess is is an overveiw of the last four years of my life summed up in ten minutes.
 
[Slideshow: "Freshman year"]
 
The summer of my freshman year I wound up in the hospital for problems with my large intestine and for a rare blood deiese calld Budd Chiari Syndrome.
 
[Lights pass over head.]
 
Two days from being sent home I was rushed into emergency surgery at 2 AM. I was so sick I was actually diying. So sick thar I remember my dad kissing me good bye and whispering "Good luck sweetheart."
 
[Begin photo slide of hospital pictures.]
 
The blood diese was so rare that they kept me in Iowa City for a month because it had the doctors so profoundly mystified that they didn't have a clue what was wrong.
 
This experince changed my life in hundreds of ways. I went from teenage depression to being a mellow, laid back, and happy girl. From dying I learned how unimmaginably fragil life was. How we could truely lose it any minute with out warning. But I learned more from others.
 
[JC3West.
Push in on sign "Art can take the pain ou of the mind and soul."
V.O. Children's hospital ward. Third Floor. West Wing. A temporary home for children of all ages, including babies. The pediatrics unit for children dying of cancer or those fighting sever illness or injury.
 
Some of the worst cases are here. Some of these kids don't live. Some of them just get lucky.]
 
I learned something here. Through these kids I learned to live again, learned not to take a single breath for granted. I deciced I'd live for those who couldn't.
 
Out of the corner of my eye I used to catch a glimps of a little boy running past my room decked out in a Superman or Batman costume, bald from kemo, but with a big smile on his face.
 
I realised that if a boy, who had it much worse than I did could be happy then I could be happy too. I had a lot to smile about and a lot to be thankful for.
 
When my mother broke down and cried I comforted her by saying that this had all happened for a reason and that purpose was to make me stonger. And if I had to change these things I would do it the same way again.
 
JC3W was the biggest turning point in my life. In a strange way it was dying that taught me to live.
 
 
Academically my classes were changed from my orriginal 8th grade plan.
 
[Insert 8th grade plan]
 
We understood that it was not possible for me to take certan classes so my schedule was changed to this:
 
[Insert current transcript]
 
Sometimes I did attend classes for a few hours each day, the rest was tutored at home. I went through 2 surgeries my freshman year. Sophmore year continued the same way until a surgery in April, after which I was medically homebound.
 
[Friend slideshow]
 
But I did escape on occasion to see my friends who kept me strong through this. They kept me strong both mentaly and physically. My friends are the truest friends.
 
October of my junior year I went to florida for a month for a special surgery when we realised I had the change for a better life. In Pasidena Florida I went through 2 surgieries. One of which was not related to the other. My body just likes being complicated.
 
Second semester of my junior year was my first semester of high school. Seinor year has been my first full year of highschool with full time classes. It has been an acomplishment.
 
I can't tell you that in highschool I was president of the Art or Drama club. I can't tell you that I attended soccer matches and football games. I can't tell you that because it isn't true.
 
All I can tell you is that when it comes to high school I survived it. and I learned to live.. again.
 
[In Nicole's senior year she published, broadcasted andread her poem "A Letter To Heros Oversea" durring a Veterain's Day Assembly.
 
-She participated in the school play as the pairt of Ester.
 
-She maintained a B honnor role through out most of her highschool carrer.
 
-She finished out her Senior year and graduated with her class. The class of 2006.
 
[Pic of class ring]
 
-She will go on to Kirkwood College and then transpher to California to be with her Dad.]
 

Growing Up in Southeast Iowa

I have lived in Southeast Iowa my entire life. I don&#8217;t think I would want to grow up anywhere else. Where else would you have established such strong roots but here?
For me Iowa has kept me grounded and established good morals. Growing up here you learn that there are other things than material objects in life. You don&#8217;t think as how much money can I make working over time but how soon can I get back to my family. You can kick back and take in life with out worries. I grew up playing outside with friends, not In front of a television set.
There is such as strong since of community also. When I was sick the community pooled together. Dec Hands put on a performance and there was quite a turn out. I was so shock and so touched I cried.
No matter how far away I go from here, Southeast Iowa will always be my home. I will always come back somehow because there a people and places here that have made such an impact in my life that I can never forget them.

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My Desire to Further My Education


Education has always been important to me. A few years ago I got so sick that I had to be tutored for three years. In fact my first full year of high school, is this, my senior year. My plan in middle school was to get as much as a high school education as possible and go both semesters my senior year even if I had enough credits to graduate mid term.



I did not receive that opportunity however and will graduate at the end of the year for different reasons. In the hospital instead of watching cartoons I watched the History and Discovery channel. I craved information and knowledge.



Occasionally why I was home bound I would visit my school for a few hour. My friends would comment on how lucky I was to get out of classes and stay home. I corrected them. Being home was terrible for me. I missed the in-classroom experience that was necessary for adequate education. Some classes I had to wait to take my senior year and because of that I was not able to take more advanced courses as I had previously wished.



Please understand that this is not a letter looking for sympathy, this is just the way I&#8217;ve seen the world for the last few years.



Education is very important to me. It is the way we better our future through our children.



The University of Southern California is a prestigious school for screenwriting. Their student projects may be some of the movies your recognize such as Air Force One and Sweet Home Alabama, and he Rescuers Down Under. Other graduates have gone on to work for television series such as ER, NYPD Blue, Smallville, and the O.C.



USC is also a private school which comes with a very heavy price tag, but I only want the best education because I know it will be the best hope bettering myself and for furthering my career.



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LENARD G. HASSE



MEMORIAL



SCHOLARSHIP



APPLICATION







Father&#8217;s Occupation College Student







Mother&#8217;s Occupation Dial Employee







Grade Average: 3.024







Special Interests I enjoy writing in all forms ( poetry, songs, screenplays, short



(Hobbies, travels, stories, ect;), art, web design, music, and creating movies. I have recreational activities) traveled to San Diego, California and to Bolder, Colorado to attend the United Ostomy Association for Teens, and I have traveled to Florida for surgeries.







What high school I have enjoyed many of my courses, most of them fine art related.



Courses have you I love my art classes because I enjoy working creatively, and my enjoyed and why: English courses to help better my writing skills. I also like my history classes because I enjoy learning about the past. Another of my favorite classes are psychology and sociology because I love learning what makes people work.







School Activities I am active in Yearbook, Art Club, Spanish Club, Drama Club, and



and Honors: I went with the Science Club to the symposium in Iowa City. I was also active in the school play. I have been awarded the B honor roll during my sophmore, junior, and senior years. I also received a standing ovation for reading a poem during the school's Veteran's Day assembly.







Community I have volunteered at Old Fort Madison for six years and I am



Activities: involved with local bands.







College Trade I plan to attend the University of Southern California for



School and Career screenplay or University of Iowa for creative writing. I might



Plans: spend one or two years at Kirkwood to get my basics out of the way.







List Work None, yet though I have applied for a job at Old Fort Madison..



Experience



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Special Interests I enjoy writing in all forms ( poetry, songs, screenplays, short



(Hobbies, travels, stories, ect;), art, web design, music, and creating movies. I have recreational activities) traveled to San Diego, California and to Bolder, Colorado to attend the United Ostomy Association for Teens, and I have traveled to Florida for surgeries.







Name the studies I have enjoyed many of my courses, most of them fine art related.



you like best and I love my art classes because I enjoy working creatively, and my why: English courses to help better my writing skills. I also like my history classes because I enjoy learning about the past. Another of my favorite classes are psychology and sociology because I love learning what makes people work.







School Activities I am active in Yearbook, Art Club, Spanish Club, Drama Club, and



and Honors: I went with the Science Club to the symposium in Iowa City. I was also active in the school play. I have been awarded the B honor roll during my sophmore, junior, and senior years. I also received a standing ovation for reading a poem during the school's Veteran's Day assembly.











Community I have volunteered at Old Fort Madison for six years and I am



Activities: involved with local bands.



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This is just a temperary fix where I place homework assignments (and if I'm dislexic I blame if on Ashie.)
 

Interesting Facts

1. An amusement park called “Dracula Land” had plans to be built in sighirosa

2. Vlad Dracula the impailer was the man who inspired Bram Stroker’s Dracula. However he was not a vampire but a bloody tyrant known for his brutal torture tactics.

3. Vlad Dracula’s wife believed if she bathed in the blood of virgin maidens she would be beautiful for ever.


The Transylvanian plateau is 1,000-1,600 feet high, is drained by the
Mureş, Someş, Criş, and Olt rivers, as well as other tributaries of the Danube. This core of historical Transylvania roughly corresponds with nine counties of modern Romania. Transylvania is a providence located in the heart of Romaina.

The kingdom of Dacia was the beginning of Transylvania starting in second century BC. In 101-102 and 105-106 Trajan, the Roman emperor, fought a military campaign against the Dacians, known as the Dacian Wars. The Dacian’s lost the war and became part of the Roman territory. But due to revolts and pressure from the Visigoths, Rome abandoned Dacia Trajana.

Leadership traded hands from the Visigoths to the Carpaians and onto the Huns then to the Gepids of Avars. It was influenced by a massive Slavic migration and at the beginning of the 9th century became a part of the first Bulgarian Empire.

The 16th century was marked by the struggle between the Ottoman Empire and the Habsburg Empire. The Ottoman Empire conquered central Hungary and established Turkish rule, Transylvania became a semi-independent region where Austrian and Turkish influences vied for supremacy for nearly two centuries.

Due to the fact that Transylvania was now beyond the reach of Catholic religious authority, Protestant preaching such as Lutheranism and Calvinism were able to flourish. In 1568 a formal adoption of individual freedom of religious expression was issued by the Edict of Turda the first such legal guarantee of religious freedom in Christian Europe.

Austria then imposed a repressive reign on Hungary, ruled Transylvania directly through a military governor and many medieval privileges and granted citizenship to the Romanians. However, in the 1867the special status of Transylvania ended and it was incorporated into the Kingdom of Hungary.

The Austro-Hungarian empire had began to disintegrate after the end of the First World War. Nations living inside proclaimed their independence from the empire. The leaders of Transylvania's National Party passed a resolution calling for unification of all Romanians In response, the Hungarian General Assembly reaffirmed the loyalty of Hungarians from Transylvania to Hungary on December 22 1918.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transylvania

 

I chose this camera because it uses its 6.3 Megapixel SuperCCD HR sensor to produce high quality images I also like the price at butterfly photo which is 269. And I love the xD picture card. Those things are really handy

Manufacturer: Fuji Photo Film USA
Model name: FinePix F10
Max resolution: 2848 x 2136
Zoom capability: 3X optical + 6.2X digital
Storage method: xD Picture card (16MB card included)
Storage capacity (w/included card): 5-122
Batteries used: NP-120 (1)


I chose this camera because it is faster and smaller. And hey you can get a body kit for it, though thats not the best reason to like a camera. The compact flash is univeral so it should be easy to find. Best price is $809 at Us1camera.

Manufacturer: Canon USA, Inc.
Model name: Digital Rebel XT
Max resolution: 3456 x 2304
Zoom capability: N/A
Storage method: CompactFlash Type II (no card included)
Storage capacity (w/included card): N/A
Batteries used: NB-2LH (1

 

For english 4 I needed to write a mini epic about a hero. The artical I chose was Darci's doctor. It sucks because I wrote it eairly in the morning but I got it done. The reason I posted this is so that I could print the artical.

A great man, the lonely protector of children in his youthful time

He who would go to the ends of the earth to save a forlorn soul,

Who wept with his people as they wept,

And sat beside them before a deathlike state took them,

He who fought many bleak battles, overcame them and saved many lifes,

Had finally surcumed to soft sweet rest and took his leave.

No longer in his once swift hands remaind the dexterity of a surgon

Who could battle the sickness beneath young flesh and over come it

He now left the world that he had conquered now left for others to explore and dominate

And the doctor, healer of the sick, the denyer of premature death, withdrew from the medical world.

For the moment anyways.

 

 

 

Retiring pediatrician: Child at heart

Grateful families bid farewell as longtime pediatrician faces latest challenge: retirement

Cake was already sliced at the birthday party when Darci Dixon walked in the door. The teen's cherry-red highlights and Insane Clown Posse sweatshirt were a definite contrast to the guest of honor's tweed coat and tie, tight-clipped hair and glasses that slid down his nose.

The venue was an unlikely hangout for Dixon, too -- a classroom at Alaska Regional Hospital. But the 16-year-old wouldn't have missed this 69-year-old's birthday and retirement party "because I love the man," she said.

For most of 30 years, Clinton Lillibridge was the only pediatrician in Alaska who specialized in children's stomach and intestinal problems. He helped Dixon fight Crohn's disease, a condition that wracked her with stomach pain and required special diets and eventually surgery.

Dixon credits Lillibridge with nothing less than saving her life. She'd fly in from Valdez to see him. When she cried, he cried. When she needed surgery, he sat with her. As the anesthesia kicked in, he'd say "sweet dreams, Darci."

And, "sometimes, when I was crying, he'd lean down and kiss my forehead."

Former patient Keri Banks came to the party, too, to recognize the doctor who helped her battle colitis and recover after her large intestines were removed. Now 21, she's expecting a child, an exciting development, she says, considering her past health problems.

Elaine Fauske came because her son David wanted Lillibridge to know he appreciated his help with juvenile diabetes since age 8. Now in his 20s, David is a staff assistant for Sen. Lisa Murkowski in Washington, D.C.

Grateful parents jogged his memory by flashing their babies' pictures. Still others paraded their kids by as Lillibridge smiled and said, "another success story."

One by one, they gave thanks on behalf of themselves and many more like them. In total, Lillibridge has cared for 19,000 children since opening his private practice decades ago.

COMING NORTH

Of all the specialties laid out before him during medical school, Lillibridge settled on pediatrics because it was all about children and nothing about what he calls "cases of." He didn't want to deal with cases of heart disease or cases of pneumonia. He wanted to deal with families.

His nurse says he's part Marcus Welby, the good-hearted physician on television. He made house calls and even held clinics on his sailboat, The Ghost, when he traveled to Seward. Even on vacation, his nurse would fax him patients' questions every day, and Lillibridge would answer them every day.

"We were not off call, even in England," said his wife, Tricia.

His staff says he's also part Patch Adams, a doctor who used humor when treating patients. On St. Patrick's Day, Lillibridge became a leprechaun. To put kids at ease, he'd wear a monkey puppet, allowing the monkey to come to the door first, his nurses said.

He'd bring his dog Prancer to the office, just in case an anxious child needed something furry to pet.

He's a jokester, known to write silly messages on children's medical reports and start his dictation charts with riddles, just to give the transcriptionist a good laugh.

Medicine, however, wasn't the first career Lillibridge had in mind. In fact, his love for Alaska began in 1955 when he came for the summer as a college student interested in fish biology.

For three summers, Lillibridge left the University of Washington and counted salmon in lakes and creeks all over Alaska. But the young man from Olympia soon learned that in the 1950s, there weren't jobs for people interested in marine biology.

Lillibridge shifted gears. He thought about designing hydroplanes.

"Well, when I flunked trigonometry for the third time, I realized I need some type of science that doesn't require math and that I can make a living at," he said. He settled on medicine, but not without qualms.

Lillibridge's father was a general practitioner committed to his work. That dedication meant he was never around.

"He promised we would go fishing, but then Mrs. Jones was having a baby. And there went our fishing."

At first, Lillibridge decided he wouldn't do that to his own family and steered clear of medicine. But when he committed to the degree, he decided to focus on teaching and research, jobs that would allow him to be home at night.

With graduation came that family. Lillibridge married and raised children. He finished residencies at children's hospitals in Boston and Seattle. He then completed specialized training in gastroenterology, a branch of medicine that treats disorders of the digestive tract. He settled in New York, where he taught and did research at the University of Rochester.

During that time, he'd invite medical students to dinner and entice them with slide shows from his 1950s trips north. Today, two of those former students -- Drs. Jon Lyon and Phyllis Kiehl -- still care for children in Anchorage, Lillibridge said.

During his stay in Rochester, Lillibridge started coming to Alaska for a month a year, filling in for doctors who temporarily left the state.

"I was quite torn," he said. "Alaska was clearly the place I wanted to live."

But he was still raising children and wanted a job that allowed him to be a parent. He stayed in Rochester until 1977, finally moving to Alaska for good. Since then, he's done everything from helping children who'd swallowed pennies, nickels, dimes, even little plastic toys, to treating ulcers, intestinal diseases and failing organs.

At the time, pediatric specialists were in short supply. Ailing children relied on visiting doctors who came to Alaska a couple of times a year.

Today, Alaska has more specialists, but Lillibridge remained the only children's gastroenterologist until he recruited Dr. Allan Pratt. Pratt has taken over the business that Lillibridge left.

WORKING THE 12 STEPS

During his three decades in Anchorage, Lillibridge took care of more than just patients. He took care of his colleagues.

Years ago, Lillibridge led the Physician Health Committee, a branch of the Alaska State Medical Association. The committee's task was to find doctors who abused alcohol and get them help before they lost everything, including their jobs. Later, Lillibridge started another group called the Alaska Practitioner Recovery Program, providing similar help to dentists, pharmacists, and physical therapists.

Lillibridge's work was personal.

"I'm an alcoholic," he said. But he calls himself fortunate because his drinking never threatened his career like he's seen it do to other doctors. He addressed his problem when his father and sister died of alcoholic cirrhosis, a chronic liver disease.

"That scared me something terrible," said Lillibridge, who entered treatment 20 years ago.

The doctor has put in many hours on the committee, sharing his time and home with people who've struggled through the same things he has, said Dr. Mary Ann Foland, who directs the Physician Health Committee. Foland said she respects Lillibridge for sharing his own history with others.

"That says a lot for me about someone's personal recovery, that they are willing to open themselves up personally in order to help others."

Lillibridge helped people like John Winczura, a nurse who struggled with alcohol and drug addiction and is working with the state medical board to reinstate his license to work as a physician assistant. He said Lillibridge was his professional sponsor, calling Winczura to see how he was doing and telling him when to report for urine or breath tests to verify his sobriety.

The rewarding part, Lillibridge said, was seeing his colleagues come when their life was in shambles and transform into happy, productive people.

"I learned that stopping drinking doesn't make your life happy," Lillibridge said. "The process of living the 12 steps does."

"I wish everybody could get into a 12-step program. To admit when I'm wrong. To make amends, what a concept. ... To accept people just as they are, not as I'd like them to be."

"I love them and cherish them just as they are. It's not my job to tell them where they messed up."

Winczura said Lillibridge has worked hard on his life, his morality and ethics.

"He was an excellent example to me of what a person should do in their life," Winczura said.

A SURVIVOR

Tricia Lillibridge calls her husband a survivor. When they got to know each other and married more than a decade ago -- he a doctor and she a nurse at Providence Alaska Medical Center -- Tricia said they shared a connection on life's dark challenges.

Both had spouses who had died. Both had children who'd been seriously injured or ill. Lillibridge's young daughter died of brain cancer. Over the years, he's lived through marriages that ended. He cared for kids with complex problems, saving many lives but losing some, too.

Over and over, people recognizing this history ask Lillibridge what he's going to do now that he's retired. He says he'll spend more time on music, mainly singing with the Anchorage Concert Chorus. Lillibridge just wrapped a performance in "The Flying Dutchman."

He and his wife bought land in Homer and will start building a home there, a home that will likely be their main residence when Tricia retires in a few years.

He'll enjoy all the things he came to Alaska to do: hike, boat and cross-country ski. And he'll focus on his photography, a hobby that reminds him of the work he did for 30 years.

"It ties in with pediatrics," he said, between guests at his party.

"The thing I like about pediatrics is kids are so enthusiastic. ... To a child, the sun coming up in the morning is magic. That's what I try to do with my photography, try to see the same old thing with fresh eyes."

When he cared for ailing adult patients, they often asked for a medical excuse to miss work. But not kids, he said. They'd be halfway back to feeling better and come to him begging to go out and have fun.

Keri Banks said she wants the same for her doctor. She came to congratulate him for so much hard work. Now, she said, he should play.

Daily News reporter Ann Potempa can be reached at 257-4581 or apotempa@adn.com.

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